| Riddle |
[May. 15th, 2009|05:11 pm] |
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This riddle is simple but I thought it was creatively written:
(I do not know the author, got it from igoogle Riddle-A-Day)
With pointed fangs it sits in wait, With piercing force its doles out fate, Over bloodless victims proclaiming its might, Eternally joining in a single bite. What am I?
Answer(mouse over after the colon -->) : A stapler
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| "My name is Charlise and I am not a Prostitute" |
[May. 15th, 2009|05:09 pm] |
Okay, LAS VEGAS ROCKED!!!
My cousin invited me to Las Vegas for her birthday bash. There was about 8 of us in total, consisting of her and her friends and cousins. Her friends were really nice and made me feel like part of the group.
We got there Friday night and the first thing my cousin wanted to do was go clubbing. We didn't get back to our hotel until 5am pdt/8am est. I was dead tired that whole night her friends kept telling me to wake up! :P I mean come on a 6 hour flight and then still go clubbing!
Her friends age range around 24-27. I was an old fart compared to them, but I had a good time. We all got a club package to get into clubs without waiting in line, which worked out well in the long run. We went to a total of 5+ clubs the whole weekend. When we found a club we liked we just stayed there the whole night.
All through the trip I kept seeing girls dressed in evening gowns at like 3pm at the mall! I kept thinking what the hell! They were dressed to impressed. I remember my ex telling me when he went most of the girls were prostitutes in the clubs and around Las Vegas. Well, I don't think I realized when I came across one because no girls hit on me. My ex had me fucking paranoid that people would think I was a freakin' stripper or prostitute if I didn't dress a certain way. Maybe his next girlfriend will have problems in LV because I am sure he will make sure she is dressed to impressed. However, I had no issue but because of my paranoia I kept thinking in the back of my head that people think I was some type of stripper or something. I think on Sunday I wore the shortest shorts I have ever worn in my life and only then did I actually really believe someone might have a valid reason to think I was some type of prostitiute however, I didn't have any issues. A couple of guys that day might have said 'hello' or 'you got the time' but that was the only kind of prosititute thing that happen that day and i don't think they thought I was a prosititute..they probably just thought I was easy. However, everytime I talked to a guy in a club that whole weekend my catchphrase was: "My name is Charlise and I am not a Prostitute". *laughs* I was paranoid.
All the girls in the b-day group went to a Stripper 101 class. I had a great time and brought a T-shirt from the class. The retired stripper(who stilled looked good) showed us some lap dance moves and pole dancing tricks. I remember when I finished the class and she was handing out little cute cards saying we where officially strippers *laughs* she asked me for my name and I told her Charlise and she was like that is a great stripper name! of course that added to my paranoia about my name:P I did enjoy the class though!
We did spend an afternoon going to the different hotels and riding on the attractions there. We when to New York New York hotel and rode on the Screamer coaster. It cost $16 and was probably worth only $8 but the coaster was better than I had expected for a hotel coaster. We went to the Venetian hotel and rode on a gondola. We also went on the Big Shot and Scream in the Stratosphere hotel, they cost around $13 each ride. It was a great time.
I went to In & Out Burger, and the animal style burger was okay. The way Ron and other people rave about it I thought it would give me a damn orgasm or something! *laughs*
I'm really glad I went. I do not think I would go to Las Vegas without a reason and a b-day was a great reason! |
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| God must be good! |
[Apr. 14th, 2009|05:08 pm] |
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I had to switch insurances because my job switched insurances. So instead of Aetna I have Cigna. I had to switch doctors as well because the doctor that is really good doesn't take Cigna so the doctor I currently have sucks ass!!
I went to my Cigna doctor a few weeks ago because I was having cramps and I was worried about it. So, I saw the doctor and made another appointment in a few weeks. Well, it has been almost a few weeks now and the pain is still there. I got really scared this morning because I did not hear from the cigna doctor regarding any prescpritions. I called the Cigna doctor and was told by the staff, "If something is wrong we will send you a postcard to make another appointment." WTF is that about!!!
When I had to go to my previous Aetna doctor, and anything was wrong with test results I would get a phone call with instructions to either go to the office to pick up my prescription or they would call the pharmacy for me. Well my Cigna doctor does not do this, they send you a postcard to tell you to make another appointment. So, you have to wait weeks for a prescription after you have seen the doctor.
I was so scared that I called my ex. He is the only one that really knows this medical situation I am in..and he was nice on the phone...I guess after dumping me his life got better and happier..go figure...of course in the phone call he was trying to find out who I might be sleeping with. He claims he needed to know because of my medical stuff..but the specific medical issue i am talking about is not related to anyone I am sleeping with. I was freaking out on the phone and he told me I couldn't really do much about the situation because it could be the doctor's staff that suck.
Well, I got a phone call from my Aetna doctor's wonderful staff and they informed me they are in the process of getting Cigna! Woohoo!! I am so glad God was on my side with this. He doesn't seem to be on the side concerning eligible men..but if you do not have your health your love life can wait! |
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| Charlaine Harris' Sookie Stackhouse Series |
[Apr. 9th, 2009|05:06 pm] |
Okay, I just finished the most current paperback out for the Stackhouse series which the 'True Blood' HBO TV series is based on. I'm too cheap to buy the current hardcover and I don't have the space for a big book
Of course it was a great book and I do believe the series is good..but I guess because it is TV they add plot twists that are not actually in the book. For example, it has been a while since I have read the first book in the series..probably years but I do not remember Tara's mother having any parts in the story or even Lafayette part in the series is bigger than in the book. I do not remember Sam being adopted. However, now that I am thinking about it the books are concetrating on Sookie's point of view. All the additions the HBO special is taking is looking at other character's part of view, so maybe if Harris did have more time to put those view points in her book it wouldn't seem so 'added for TV' fluff.
Reading the paperback 'Dead or Worse' it confirms my doubts aobut the TV series portraying Sam as being adopted. In this paperback, he talks about his mother, father,brother and sister. |
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| TrueBlood |
[Apr. 6th, 2009|01:12 pm] |
Okay, I love Charlaine's Harris Sookie Stackhouse series of vampire romance books. I think she is a good author. My friend Jaime got me into the TrueBlood HBO series based on the books. I was a little reluctant to get into the HBO series because I love her books so much I thought they would fuck up the storyline.
They did make some changes to the storyline and added plot twists but the cast of the show do look like the books. Except Tara, who is black on the show but I do not remember Harris stating that in the book. However, it has been a while since I read the book series from the beginning so it could be something I missed. Oh and except Erick who looks terrible.
I do not want to state that Eric, (I have to look up the actor's real name) is not a good looking guy. I am sure in RL he is a good looking guy but on the show whoever is doing his makeup is not giving the guy justice!!!
Last night I watched two episode of the show and in both episodes Eric, who is a vampire, makeup looked terrible. It is like the makeup artist just put a streak of white powder on the guy's forehead and named him a vampire. The poor guy! Bill, another character on the show is a vampire and his makeup is fine. He looks pale and the tone is evened out. But, on Eric, it is like the amateur makeup artist had a bad day and decided to take it out on the actor! If you watch the show episodes 8 & 9 you will notice what I am talking about. Eric's forehead looks whiter than any other part of the poor guy's face & body. |
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| Jaime's B-day! |
[Apr. 6th, 2009|12:43 pm] |
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Okay, My best friend Jaime's b-day was last Saturday. I had a great time with my friends and Jaime's family. Everyone was in good spirits and we had a blast!!!! Some of us got totally blasted and we drank Jaime's liquor like it was going out of style! Good times Good times!!! =D I ended staying the night I was suppose to drop a friend home but we just both crashed at Jaime's house. We brought breakfast the next day and then I had to go home and try my best to find my tax forms to give to the H&R lady. bad times..bad times! *laughs*! |
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| Bad things don't happen to Bad people |
[Apr. 6th, 2009|12:42 pm] |
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I know a lot of people believe that karma will come back to either bless someone who has done good or the people who have done bad will have bad done to them. I don't know if I believe this since my ex has treated me bad in the past and nothing bad happens to him. He gets away with hurting, ignoring and treating me like shit but he just goes and lives his great fucking life.
Yesterday was his b-day so I called him to wish him a happy b-day. I know I should not have and I know that he would not pick up his phone since I changed my my blog address make to the originial name. He believes I am a bitch because I only did one of the two things that he wanted me to do for him. He wanted me to change his name on the blog so that HE wouldn't have to see his name to remind himself that he is a wicked person. He wanted me to change the blog link so that HE didn't know it and didn't need to look at it so that HE wouldn't feel guilty about how badly he treated me.(even though no one makes anyone look at a website) So, he will not communicate with me ever again(so I will not get my monitor money because that would require communication even though he did say he would said it after he read my monitor post..but of course it is okay for him to change his own mind but not for me to change my mind about wanting to keep my blog web address).
So, all my anger and hate towards him for treating me like crap and hurting me doesn't matter in his world. HE believes that because HE wanted to be 'my friend' meant that he was a good person and that I needed to forget all the shit he put me through. Does the universe care that he is a bastard and he treated me like a worthless person?
Nope, the universe will bless the bastard with a perfect life and I will get the crap left over. |
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| Changing my mind |
[Apr. 1st, 2009|12:42 pm] |
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I changed my mind regarded changing the blog link to lisaanimelover. So, my ex texted me, (didn't have the respect to call me) to tell me that i was not being nice and that I was being a bitch because I told him i was going to change the link to the blog and I didn't.
Well, technically i changed the link to the blog, but only for a day. So, I did as I said I would for only a short period of time. I changed the son of a bitches' name on my blog but oh no..I am still a bitch because I decided to change my blog link back.
He then goes and tells me how my actions have made him realized that we will never get back together again. Mind you the about of times that song of a fucking bitch changed his mind in our relationship is pages long. He changed his mind aobut getting back together with me when he came up to see his family earlier this year. He changed his mind about me going to Atlantic city with him and his brother last year when we were still technically dating. He changed his mind about marrying me when he said that he was certain that he would. He changed his mind about a lot of things.
BUT THE ONE THING I DO WHERE I CHANGE MY MIND ABOUT A STUPID BLOG LINK...IS WHAT BREAKS THE CAMEL'S BACK. WELL FUCK THE CAMEL.
My ex is an asshole but what really pisses me off is that he is so selfish he only sees what is good for him. When he hurt me so badly and was not by my side when I was in phsyical pain, did he ask for forgivenss no...because to him me being in physical and emotional pain was something that I should get over and not his problem. To him it was not a big deal. That is how selfish he is.
Me changing my link would have made him at peace..he doesn't care about my feelings or that all he would have to do is not look at my blog! He is such a fucking bastard that I think him breaking off contact with me will help me heal more. I just hope I still get the monitor money he owes me. But, we won't hold our breathe for that one. |
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| Weblink is back! |
[Mar. 31st, 2009|12:41 pm] |
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Well, that whole day at another web address did wonders didn't it? Well, I am back on starfloater.blogspot.com because I realized that "Don" got what he wanted by his name changed in my blog so why the hell can't i keep my website address? Oh, because he doesn't want to look at my blog? but he was looking at it when I changed the web address so we are back baby! |
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| Ex's name change |
[Mar. 31st, 2009|12:40 pm] |
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Okay, my ex is a lawyer. He is also an asshole. So, he told me to remove his 'real' three letter nickname from my posts so no one can identify who he is. So I just changed it to another letter name so he cannot sue me for publicly discussing our relationship online. I do not know if this is legally possible but he is an asshole, let's not forget that and I am sure he will find a way to ruin my life. Because he feels my blog..which no one that knows him reads, ruins his life.
So, from now on, his name will be Don. And everything I mention his fake name in my blog I will try to remember to make a note letting everyone know that he is a fucking asshole that feels me saying his three letter nickname in my blog will associate him with me for all times and he won't be able to have "closure" in our relationship. He knows someone out there (besides me) knows that he is a fucking asshole to a nice girl.
Just to let you know Don, just because you made me change my weblink and change your name in my blog does not mean, you are not a fucking bastard prick. It does not mean that you are not the one that screwed me over. It does not mean that no one will know that this blog is about you. It just means that you do not want to come to terms with someone out there not liking you and voicing their opinion about you.
You, my friends, and my family have met you and will know it is about you. My online friends who have never met you will still know it is about you because of the time of posts.
And I will know who are you. Anytime the going got tough in our relationship you either did not pick up the phone or come see me and did not pay attention to me. Well, this action shows your true yellow color. Even, when we are "closed" as you put it, you still can't face the consequences of your actions. |
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| Ex's name |
[Mar. 30th, 2009|12:40 pm] |
So, my ex asked me to change my blog web addy because he would occasionally check my old blog link to see how I was doing. Now, any one who has read my blog knows that for the past probably 4 to 5 months I have been bashing my ex because of the fucked up way he broke up with me and how he treated me few months before and after the breakup.
Usually, in my posts regarding him I do not call him by name. He is usually the 'asshole' or just the 'ex'. So, he calls me up today at work and tells me, "Oh, can you take out my name on your blog and change the blog link so I don't have access to it. Because I feel that your posts are angry and bias." Uhm..excuse me..you dumped me..I"m going to me freaking angry!! and wait..let me read this blog title again "Lisa's Random thoughts"..wait this is my blog!!! I can be as bias as I wish!!!
So, I told him I would change the link and I would take out his name from the posts when I had time. Basically, when I feel like it. I changed the link because I figured I would be nice(he always accusing me of being nice to everyone and not him). I will take his name out of the posts later. But for now, I would like to talk more about Don.
Don feels that his name, "Don", in my blogs will magically let everyone know who he is in Real Life. You will magically know Don's first, middle and last name. You will know Don's address, Don's social security number, and whatever else information you can find. Wait, let me give you Don's last name initial so you can find out what Don P. looks like because everyone knows that if you have the person's nickname and Last name initial you can find this all out, magically.
During today's phone call Don P. keeps telling me, "Why do you want me to be angry with you, all I am asking you to do is change the blog link and take out my name." What the Fuck is that! Why should I be angry about that, Don P.? If you do not want to read my blog then don't read it, Don P.!! IF you don't like what I have to say in my blog, then don't read it, Don P.. If you like my blog then... wait for it... DON'T READ IT, DON P.!!!
But, I am a nice person so I changed the link..but you know..I am still angry at Don P. so I think I will remove his name from my blog a little later.
Thank you for letting my vent on my own blog, Don P.!! |
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| My Friend's Thoughts |
[Mar. 30th, 2009|12:37 pm] |
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Usually there are only a handful of my friends that read this blog and maybe one or two people that come across it in a search and just email comments to me. One of my new friends commented on how I had to change my blog link because my ex was feeling annoyed that I had his name mentioned in the blog and my blog talks about how angry I am that he broke up with me.
The hapless stated:
"As to you needing to change things to appease Commander Jack-Ass. He needs to realize that he is not the center of everything, and of course breaking up is messy business but part of being a man is taking responsibility for the mess. After all "hell hath no fury like a woman scorned." And part of stepping up and being a man for him should be enduring the fury that he has brought down upon himself."
Thank you! and of course you can call him Commander Jack-Ass because frankly that is what he is. |
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| Just friends |
[Mar. 30th, 2009|12:35 pm] |
So, the asshole makes sure to tell me that we are just friends and that we need closure. He feels that my blogs are expressing anger and he does not want his name in it or to be able to view the blog(which no one is forcing him to look at.)
So, I will change the name of this blog so I don't have to hear him bitching to me that I need to respect his wishes.
I do not know if I will change it back in the future. I probably will when he forgets to check it. |
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| I want my Monitor! |
[Mar. 22nd, 2009|12:34 pm] |
I researched for weeks looking at flat screen monitors. I finally found one that I liked so when I was with my ex(we were still dating at the time) I went to buy it for $250 at Circuit City. I was so excited about getting the new monitor that I hooked it up at his house thinking the next time he comes up to NY he can just give it to me.
Of course the fucking bastard told me, "Oh it is so nice..can i just keep it and give you the money?" I said(because I am a nice person), "Okay fine..just give me the money for the monitor."
OF course the bastard sees me weeks ago and doesn't pay me the money or bring the monitor which i did the research for and brought with my own money.
$250 might not be a lot of money to some people..but it is when you are trying to save money. Would it have killed him just to write a check for $250? He just moved to a cheaper place..he could have given me the money. IF he was really a decent person...he would just give me back the monitor I researched and brought. But, he is just another asshole. Who believes he should get stuff for free.
Now, I have to look for another monitor and spend another $250-300 on it. The thing about the monitor my ex now is that it was a steal! I would have had to pay $100 more than I did if Circuit City was not going out of business at the time. |
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| Christian the Lion |
[Mar. 14th, 2009|12:33 pm] |
My mom made me watch this Oprah episode about two Australian boys that adopted a lion cub back in 1968 and raised it for about a year in their flat in England. After one year, the cub got too big for them to handle so they had to release into the African wild.
It is a touching story which had me holding back tears. The version below is the one with words and video which explains their story(I recommend watching this video first):
Christian the Lion - Touching Story
The next version is the full complete video which is in better quality but no story text.
Christian The Lion - Full Video
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| WHAT A FUCKING ASSHOLE!!! - continued |
[Mar. 11th, 2009|12:32 pm] |
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He is just so full of himself....When I was on the phone with him and mention maybe when he is in town for his friend's bachelor party(mind you when we were dating he never came up just to see me unless it was my birthday or an event we were going to) we can get together for lunch or coffee...and he replies, "Oh well, if you can't make it don't change your plans for me." He is so damn conceited..that he can't just say, "Well, hopefully we can get together" He has to make a point that he is so important that he doesn't mind if I don't change my plans for him.
I just can't get it out of my mind..that he was so damn happy to hear from me but he couldn't call me in 7 days because he was so busy preparing to move but to call me is just too much. What a fucking asshole.....GOD I HATE HIM.
I wish the pain would go away and I can just let the fucking bastard go.
I REALLY WISH SOMEONE WOULD HURT HIM AS MUCH AS HE HAS HURT ME. |
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| WHAT A FUCKING ASSHOLE!!! |
[Mar. 11th, 2009|12:31 pm] |
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I called my ex today to get some information regarding Las Vegas. He pulled the same shit he always pulled. We haven't spoken in a week so of course he says, "I was going to call you..." HE says shit like that all the time.
"I was going to do this..." ... "I was going to do that for you..." but he never does it. When I spoke to him today he made it seem like I was being mean to him because I was not acting all happy to talk to him and hear about his move and because I told him "Well good luck with that move.." it meant that I was being an asshole towards him!
WTF! HE IS SUCH A FUCKING ASSHOLE!! "I was going to call you.." well then why didn't you just fucking call! Why after the fact do you say shit like that! Just don't say anything. If you don't actually perform the action..why the fuck do you bring it up!!! GOD I can't stand it!!! I can't stand how he just acts all fucking happy because he heard from me..and I should feel the same damn way!!
I knew it was a mistake to call him....I guess I just wanted an excuse to hear his voice, but goddamn I hate him now..I hate him so much..but I still want to hear from him..I still love him but I can't fucking stand the shit he pulls at the same time!!!!
Who the fuck says shit like "I was going to call you" for a week I didn't call him..and you mean to tell me..now when you hear from me you say, "I was going to call you!" what a fucking damn ass fucking fucking fucking prick!!!!!!!!!!!
He emails me a map of Las Vegas and he feels like he is doing me a huge favor..like he treated me like shit the past few months we were together..but now ..oh my god...I emailed you a map..so you should be thanking me and be grateful that I am picking up your calls! Mind you...I called him and he didn't fucking pick up the phone...but I need to be grateful he called me back! GODDAMN..I wish i could just erase his fucking image from my mind.
You know I do believe it is true that if you broke up with someone you need to date someone else to get over them. I was not going to do the "Lisa's Quest" thing...anymore...but I think I will start it because for me to really get over the fucking asshole I need to date someone to take my mind off the fucking asshole.
So for my quest, I was going to do a time limit..but that is ridiculous I will just leave it open and try to go out more..to clubs and events in the city..and travel. The trip to Aruba was great with my family and I am going to Las Vegas so that will help with my quest. Just chatting with someone in Las Vegas would be more interesting than me thinking about who the asshole is fucking now.
I just need to stop calling him. I need to realize that if he doesn't care that he hasn't heard from me in a whole week then I shouldn't care about him either. It hurts so much for him to be so nonchalant about not hearing from me and actually happiness in his voice like his life is wonderful. It's funny, he has hurt me so much in the past 6 months and it is like my brain can't register that I should not keep going back to being hurt.
I will not give him the satisfaction of knowing that he hurt me anymore!
I will not give him the satisfaction of knowing that he hurt me anymore!
I will not give him the satisfaction of knowing that he hurt me anymore!
I will not give him the satisfaction of knowing that he hurt me anymore!
If he ever decides to call me again, I will be fucking happy! I will be not let him know how I am really feeling and I will act like it is the fucking best day of my life that I am having without him in it!
I need to write that like hundred time on scrap paper...let me get to it! =) |
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| Moving On....Lisa's Quest |
[Mar. 10th, 2009|12:29 pm] |
Okay, since my ex-dumped me I have been pretty bummed. A couple of weeks ago we met up and he was still undecisive if we should get back together. So, he first told me that he wanted to get back together but when we met up he changed his mind because we had two separate disagreements around the time we were to meet up..so of course Mr. Asshole..decided you know what I don't want to try this again.
Fine, whatever, now he just wants to be friends. Of course I do not agree with just 'being friends' because that really is telling me you can tell me you were in love with me for 3 years but now 'oh...you are just a friend'. It is so much of an insult and the asshole can't understand the reason why 'being just friends' is insulting to our past relationship. When we met up a couple of weeks ago it was terrible for me..I ended up crying into my lasagna during our dinner. At the end of that, out of pity(well, he states 10% out of pity) he decides..yeah we can try it again. Well, when someone just wants to start something with you because they feel sorry for you, it kind of is a total turn off. And of course his pity(and not asking my calls) made me feel like shite. So, I told him I would just try to be friends..and that was a disaster for me..it made me feel like that thing that is below shit...let's call it shit scum. I can't be friends with a guy that I loved for 3 years..I hung out with his friends and knew some of their future plans then now...he talks about friends..like I am suppose to be happy for his friends who are getting married. Don't get me wrong, of course, I am happy that two people are getting married but I don't want my ex to be telling me good news. I feel like crap because he dumped me and he is talking to me like we are best mates and he is so elated about the marriage. I should just be happy about him being happy. Fuck that!
So, in our last meaningful conversation, last week sometime, I told him I did not want to be his friend. I just couldn't do it...him just calling me whenever he felt like it..or just returning my phone calls or picking up my calls whenever he felt like it just pissted me off and made me feel like I was nothing to him. Him telling me news about how he is going to be moving out of his place and going somewhere else. Now, tell me, how is my ex telling me his is moving to a new place where he will find new girls to date, suppose to make me feel? I just didn't want to have to hear him talk about stuff like that. Even just regular conversation stuff with him would depress me..no affectionate in his words...but he wants to heal, so calling me when he feels like it helps him I guess.
In the end, it was always about his needs anyway. Not about me meeting his mother or about him spending some quality time with my parents or answering his phone when he knew I was in pain from an operation that was very physical and emotionally draining on me(of course when I mention this to him..he just tells me I should not bring it up because it was in the past and I need to get over it) I hope all his future girlfriends have to go through the pain that I had to in that operation. I know that is totally mean..okay I take that back i should leave his future bitches out of this..but that fucking bastard has no idea what I went through.
Maybe someday I will tell everyone what I went through..because that is pain that fucking bastard can not imagine and for him not to even pick up the damn phone even if he though i was going to lash out at him..just makes me want to cry again..but I won't give him the pleasure of telling me again "Dont bring that up, it's in the past, get over it."
He didn't give a shit about what I wanted or what I went through. Yep, I'm still bitter and I will hate what he did and how he acted towards me for years and years and years..okay forever. I am a nice person but there are situations that people just can not forgive..and what I went through after my operation and for him not even to try to see me or pick up the phone when I was in need of him...I can not forgive that. And for him to throw my operation aside, like I went through nothing, that is what really hurts the most. Even if I wanted to hurt him the way I was hurt..I can't even imagine how I could do that(if you have any ideas..email me *laughs* joking I don't want to go to jail because of that fucking asshole).
So, I am trying my best to get over him..and that is what this post is really about:
MY QUEST FOR A DATE!!!!
My ex told me that last time we spoke he didn't give a shite if I was dating anyone..he was just pissted if I was dating someone so soon after the breakup. What the fuck is that about? You dump me and you are fucking considered that I am dating someone? Why? you don't want me...so why can't I move on the way you moving out and moving on. Fuck him, he didn't want me when he had me.
So, I was playing my favorite game WoW and I was doing one of the many shite quests in the game. A shite quest(I am just calling it that) is a quest where your character has to find shit or actually make shit for some gold or items in the game. You wouldn't believe how many of these quests are actually in the game. I don't know why I was thinking of my own quest while doing these quests but whatever.
So my own Quest which I haven't thought of a kewl name for it yet so it is just called "Lisa-Quest-For-A-Date" ..yeah that's catchy *laughs (I'm terrible with naming stuff)
So I think I am going to give my self a time limit with this. And some rules. hmmm...I will plan it out some more before posting the details. |
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| Additional Post - Created November 24th - I forgot to public post it. |
[Feb. 17th, 2009|12:27 pm] |
I made the below post on 11/24/08 but I accidentally had it on Draft and it was not published. It was before I met up with my ex on Friday thinking we were going to try and resolve things and not knowing that he had already decided to dump me and not try to resolve anything..just list all the things that HE wanted me to change.
Setting: Eating pizza in NJ pizzeria/restaurant with b/f. (B=boyfriend, M=Me)
B: How's the pizza?
M: It's okay.
B: I've really missed NJ pizza, DC doesn't have this type of pizza. Their pizza sucks.
M: yeah, I know, you've told me.
M: I think we should discuss, the issues we have been having, with your doubts and my concerns with our relationship.
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Okay, here is where I need to make my points clear and do my best to understand his points and be resolve the issues we have. This meeting is very important. Saturday is our anniversary and this discussion will determine if Saturday is going to be celebrated.
I was thinking about starting off slowly and bring in the major topics:
Maybe discuss the doubts he has mentioned to me:
My stubborness
My lack of being domesticated in his eyes
My lack of paying enough attention to him in the past.
My grumpiness during the Bermuda vacation he paid for.
Now my doubts:
His mother issues
His commitment issues
His doubts issues
His lack of attention when it matters issue.
Lets start down the list. I must keep in mind he will interrupt me and try to make it seem that everything is my fault and he does not need to change anything about himself. He will also make it seem that our relationship is going down hill all because of me.
My stubborness
Okay, he believes because I am stubborn I can not change without it being a battle on him.
To me, he is wrong. He is wrong because I have changed for him. I have dressed better for him I have called him more. Even though he denies that I have been calling him more..but I have the phone bills to prove it(and no I will not show them as proof. I shouldn't have to.) I call him on my lunch break and I call him on my way home but to him I do not call him and I was making a point to call him before midnight. I have been more aware of his concerns and feelings when he states them in a good manner. NOT when he nags, NOT when he makes me feel like shit, NOT when he thinks that he is God's gift to me and he can treat me how ever he feels and I am suppose to just do as he says.
For instance, when I discuss about the domestic personality he believes I lack, we will get into more detail regarding how he can state his issues and actually get a positive solution out of it.
My lack of being domesticated in his eyes
Ahh, look at that, we are already at our domestic issue. Okay, let us begin a month ago and a half ago when Don told me he wanted me to cook more for him. He made me breakfast and light snacks while i didn't do anything for him. He stated this fact and i told him I would cook more for him. I did make a point to say I was not going to cook everyday for him. So, of course after this discussion I thought it was over.
Oh God, was I wrong.
This man decided that I was not going to change, that the next time he saw me nothing would change..or that I would change only for a short period of time. So, even though after this discussion we did not see each other, he decided that he would not pay attention to me for 2 weeks so that he can 'evaluate his doubts' regarding our relationship. During these 2 weeks, I figured he was grumpy about his job and didn't want to talk much. He did state in an email one day that he was grumpy the night before so I figured that he was just grumpy and not ignoring me. What ending up happenining is, after 2 weeks I asked him about it and he let me know that he was evaluating our relationship and that I should do the same thing. He let me know that he had doubts about us(the first set of issues I listed above.) and that I needed to take a few days to evaluate us.
Now, of course I start freaking out. I mean come on..you just calmly tell me you are evaluating our relationship for the past 2 weeks ignoring me and now you are done and its my turn and I should come to the same conclusion that something is wrong. Did I mention I was freaking out about this? Well, I was...because to me everything was fine, he was just a little grumpy. So I did evaluate us..for like an hour because I was freaking out. Then I called him and texted him like a stalker and of course he took his time in responding and told me I was freaking out and being paranoid, which I probably was.
Now, the next day he decides to tell me that he feels when I come to his place I don't pull my weight around the house. He does the laundry, he does the dishes and I just sit there and let him. Of course I sit there and let him! to me if you already have dishes there sitting there all day Friday and I use one cup, you should be able to clean it without issue. If you are already doing laundry and there are a couple of my clothes being added to it, it shouldn't be an issue to just add it considering you are doing laundry anyway. He makes it seem like I do not do anything but I have done laundry it is just that when he comes home and sees that I did not fold the laundry he feels I did nothing all day. He doesn't notice that 3 load of laundry it done and the bed sheets are clean and made up. He doesn't notice the things I do because not everything is completely finished when he get home.
So, in conclusion he finally did state his frustration in a calm manner by letting me know "hey, I do things while you are here and I do not feel you do anything". If he had just said that in the beginning it would have been understood more clearly because he is all about fairness and if I am not pulling my weight I am not being fair. However, in the beginning he just said, "I make you breakfast and you don't cook for me." That statement makes me feel that you only did it to get something back..not to do it just to do it. However, that is the way he is..he always wants something back for his kindness or he feels he is being used.
My lack of paying enough attention to him in the past.
He has constantly told me how I do not pay attention to him when I am at work, with friends, or at home playing online games. He has bitched about this and when I have told him the reasoning he has not understood:
(Phone call at work)
B: "I called you twice at work today why haven't you called me back?"
M: "I am at work, I have been busy all day and I have barely been at my desk."
B: "Well, why didn't you call me back when you got to your desk."
M: "I didn't have my phone on the desk, it was in my bag and I didn't realize you called and I have been busy."
B: "Well, you can't always be busy 100% of the time you must have time for lunch at least."
M: "Sometimes, I eat lunch at my desk, while I am busy working"
(Do you notice a theme here....I do...let's continue shall we)
(Phone call on way to hang out with friends)
M: "Remember, I told you I was hanging out with friends today? Well, I'm heading there now. I wanted to call you before I got there so that we can talk about anything."
B: "Yeah, okay. Have fun with your friends."
M: "I won't call you until I get home or on my way home because I don't get to see them much and I don't want to be on the phone while I'm suppose to be hanging out with them." B: "I don't understand why you can't communicate with me every couple of hours." M: "Well, we talk every night regardless if we talk a lot during the day B: "That is not the point, you should contact me when you get a chance during the day even if you are with your friends having fun."
(Okay, in the above conversation, I think everyone can see his point. However, is it very hard to see my point? Mind you, when he is with his friends..I very rarely care if he calls me or not because I know he is with his friends..and there is nothing wrong with not talking to each other during the day knowing we will speak at night.)
Next installation. I will talk about the rest of the list and the Gaming conversation. |
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| Old Riddle |
[Feb. 3rd, 2009|12:26 pm] |
This is an old riddle that I just saw again in the 'Detective Conan' Mangas I have been reading there are about 680 comics in this series and they keep making more.
It is a very popular series in Japan about a young16 year-old high school detective, named Shinichi Kudo , that gets shrunk into a 7 year-old kid and has to live with his best friend, Ran (who he is in love with) and her father (who is a detective) to try and catch the gangsters that shrunk him and get the antidote from them so he can return to his rightful age. As a 7 year-old he named himself 'Conan' after Sir Arthur Conan Doyle'(If you don't know who Doyle is, you don't read mysteries). Conan continues to solve cases usually making sure people believe Ran's father solved the cases (because no one is going to believe a 7 year-old can solve cases).
Well, the riddle is below. It is spoken by Conan's mother who is one of the few ppl that know his true identity. She is telling some people who she is talking to that Conan is a distant relative of hers:
"Conan is the grandson of the uncle of the daughter of the brother of my father"
Any good puzzle solver will easily know the answer to the above. Usually with riddles I try my best to inspect every line slowly and usually the riddle is saying in simple terms what the answer is. Some people think too much when they are trying to solve a riddle. Sometimes what I do is think that a child(no offense to children, children are our future..blah blah blah) made up the riddle so it can't be that hard to figure out.
So if you just look at the above riddle, the easy trick is to read it slowly AND backwards and pick out the main words:
The Answer is below but it is hidden so drag your mouse below the line to see the answer and explanation:
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Answer & Explanation:
Father's -> Brother (who is your father's brother? Your Uncle)
Uncle's -> Daughter (who is your uncle's daughter to you? Your Cousin)
Cousin's -> Uncle(who is your cousin's Uncle? Your Father)
Father's -> Grandson(who is your Father's grandson? Your Son)
So, Conan's mom is not lying to anyone when she says that Conan's is her Son.
Of course the above is assuming that the person speaking only has one brother.
I have you doing a mouse rollover for the answer because I hate it when I am trying to solve a riddle on a web page and the person has the stinkin' answer right below the riddle and you can't help but see it when you are reading the riddle. Then you are just like 'Oh crap! thanks a lot!' |
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